I recently have been reflecting on how much my life has changed over the last few years, since I came across The Bars and Access Consciousness - it's this stuff that I call 'a really, really awesome toolkit for changing ANYTHING that doesn't work in your life, and creating what does!"
I was commenting to a client recently who asked about how I started out with this Access stuff, that when I first came across this it, I really had no cognitive idea what was going on, or what the Bars was really doing, or what the Clearing Statement was doing (aka the magic wand I always knew I should've had as a kid! Find out more at www.theclearingstatement.com ). Sure I had the manuals, I had learned where to place my fingers on someone's head so I was on the 'Bars' points, but if you had asked me what it was doing or why I was doing it, I probably couldn't have put it to words, other than it felt really different from anything I had done, and I just knew I had to go further.
I do remember thinking with excitement before my first ever Foundation & Level One classes (the core classes that come next after The Bars - yay there's more!!!) , I might finally be able to get clarity on all the things it has never been ok to talk about! Like money, death, love, what the hell I was doing on this planet and maybe even (though probably not) the paralysing fear that would grip me on a regular basis until I was in a fully fledged panic attack. And a million other things that had been going on my life that I knew if I talked about it to 'normal' people, would think I was crazy and probably need psychiatric help! But in my world, I knew I wasn't really crazy, and I couldn't understand why I seemed to be at the effect of so many things.... some of which I could kind of understand (eg my conditioning from my parents and their points of view), and some of which made absolutely no sense to me at all. The end result was the same, I felt totally helpless and clueless about what to be, do and create. It seemed like I could hear everyone else's voices and opinions of how I should live my life, but never my own. What did my own voice even sound like?
I remember leaping in the deep end at my first class and blurting out all these questions I had locked away for so long. My amazing facilitator was kind and generous with me. She didn't balk at my questions, or call me crazy. She took me down a road of questioning that I hadn't expected and got me looking at things in a totally different way. I was surprised, relieved, grateful, a little bit confused, not really sure how what we were talking about was applicable to my questions, but my body began to relax and a sense of a different possibility began to shine in my world.
Probably for the first year of doing Access classes, I didn't really know why I was drawn to the classes and kept going, I just knew something was shifting, even if I couldn't pinpoint it, or make a lot of sense of it. It was all kind of jumbly! But as I went on, the jumble and the knots and the anxiety and the doubt and the fear all started unravelling... and every time I would see more of the magic that I truly could create was available and accessible, and not just in the realm of 'playing pretend' that it was labelled for me as a kid. It was a reality, and it was up to me to choose it.
What if everything that you thought was totally and irrevocably unchangeable in your life, actually was totally changeable? Would you be willing to take a leap and follow what you know will change it, even if it doesn't make sense? Even if it NEVER makes sense?
I will be forever grateful for the Core Classes of Access. And I love that the classes are changing, becoming faster, lighter, creating more laughter, peace, joy and ease for so many people! And it's not that it's a workshop, or a class, it's that it is a space that launches you out of the 'Matrix' and gives you tools to keep changing and keep expanding. I don't know about you, but for me that's more exciting than just about any other thing out there I have come across. How does it get any better than that? :-)
